My back hurts and just how difficult it can be to communicate honestly with folk. How averse people can be to honest discourse. So many pretenses to manage, reputation, status etc... beliefs to defend and whatnot. Not much room for old 'Dangle Bells and his fool talk.
As I cycled home last night desperate for something... anything... I came across these posters.
Let it never be said the Big Guy doesn't have a sense of humor!
This week is turning out to be one of those crazy times, once again I've looked around for allies.... I ...test the water of their friendship with my toe and once again wonder how I managed to place myself on a barren street corner naked and without a decent shrub to hide behind (figuratively speaking)
With my mp3 player on random loop some inspiring songs call sense to me, then along comes Jed with his Bernie LaPante quote!
"You remember when I said how I was gonna explain about life, buddy? Well the thing about life is, it gets weird. People are always talking ya about truth. Everybody always knows what the truth is, like it was toilet paper or somethin', and they got a supply in the closet. But what you learn, as you get older, is there ain't no truth. All there is is bullshit, pardon my vulgarity here. Layers of it. One layer of bullshit on top of another. And what you do in life like when you get older is, you pick the layer of bullshit that you prefer and that's your bullshit, so to speak." - Bernie LaPante (Hero 1992)And I look around at it all, the people, the situations the current affairs of my fellow, fellows and ladies and squatters and lords and dogs and I wonder why? Why does it always come to this? Why am I always looking for proof that something, anything is actually TRUE?
And then Adyanshanti appears on the fb. and he says:
“I have found over the years of working with people, even people who have had very deep and profound awakenings, that most people have a fear of being truthful, of really being honest—not only with others, but with themselves as well. Of course, the core of this fear is that most people know intuitively that if they were actually totally truthful and totally sincere and honest, they would no longer be able to control anybody.
We can not control somebody with whom we have been truthful. We can only control people if we tell half-truths, if we shave down what is true. When we tell the total truth, our inside is suddenly on the outside. There’s nothing hidden anymore. For most human beings, being that exposed brings up incredible fear. Most people walk around thinking, “My god, if anybody could look inside of me, if anybody could see what is happening in there, what my fears are, what my doubts are, what my truths are, what I really perceive, they would be horrified.”
Most people are protecting themselves. They are holding a lot of things in. They are not living honest, truthful, and sincere lives, because if they were to do so, they would have no control. Of course, they don’t have control anyway, but they would have no illusion of control, either.”
The last few words of Jed before I leave... "You know it's a sewer, and you want out!"
And I remember it's kind of Zen and does anyone get that? and he said "Zen really grinds my nuts!"
I did have a chance meeting, a glimmer of hope, of something unusual... A lost dog, a brief conversation... something interesting, something new.... goodbye.
There are many things happening over this coming week, a rally against the closure of Aboriginal Communities, vigils to prevent the removal of children to Nauru... but tonight I pray for the people on death row in Indonesia.
Tomorrow the Indonesian Government intend to follow through with the execution of 9 prisoners, including Australian's Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran. God have mercy on their souls, and while he's at it save the West Papuans from their oppressors guns and the refugees from our, so called, protection and care!